a little self reflection.

In hopes of keeping readers (if any) interested, ill start by saying Im stuck $200 this month now after being +1600. Long story short, I played a 4 hour session of 200NL HU and 100NL HU and I got completely shit on, worste beats of my life. HU has huge swings I understand and I fucking got the worste of it. Lost 1800 in one night, my biggest losing day by far. Im in the red for the month, and Im really demoralized.

Now... I know poker players go through this all the time, and I realized that I handle myself very poorly in times like this, which is probably why Im still playing 100NL. I did a little reflection on myself as a poker player and came to a few conclusions.

Pros:

-Im a great student of the game, and apply the concepts I see or read about very well to my own game.

-Im a huge winner in every limit Ive played, and my winrate should be probably 5-6BBs for 100NL.

-I have very good bankroll management, I dont play a limit without 40 BIs, with the exception of the occasional shot.

-I hardly ever tilt, and I usually can stop myself if I start playing/running bad.

-I have tremendous drive to become a good poker player, and eventually make good money.

Cons:

-Im very hard on myself when I have a losing day.

-I usually quit days/sessions early even if Im running really hot and should keep playing.

-I donk around to much when Im drunk or really high

-I spew chips way to much because Im fucking bored of 100NL its so standard and easy.

-I dont realize how much money Im really playing with or losing as its just numbers on the screen to me.

-For some reason I enter tournaments and then 30 mins in, decide I want to go out with my friends and just sit out. Ive probably lost 2k this year of wasted tournament entries.

-I dont stick to my well thought out plans that I make in the beginning of the month.

-I dont play enough AT ALL

Now this is just a list that I thought of as I typed this blog, so Im probably ,missing a few things. However, I think I nailed the jist of it, and after looking over those things, Im going to try and adjust my mental game.

From now on, I am going to fucking follow my goals for the month for THE WHOLE MONTH. Im not going to take anymore shots at 200NL until I have the BR I want to make the full move. Im stuck in the month about $200 now, and Im scrapping the idea (obv) of amking 5k, Im going to stick to all my other goals previously posted though and just see where the results take me.

Im starting to understand that I have no other source of money besides poker, therefore it is my job. I need to start taking that seriously and being smarter, I realize that 100NL is no fun anymore because its not even a challenge for me, but I have to make the grind so I can get the fuck out of there. So now, Im going to treat poker as a fucking job, Im going to start cashing out a certain % (will decide later) of my winnings every month, and then keeping hte rest in my online BR to continue to move up. Im going to start playing more, and Im going to tell my g/f and friends that poker is my fucking job, and dont think that I can just do anything at any time. Im going to dedicate time to sitting in my room and playing poker with no other distractions, as if I were in the workplace.

Again, as readers can probably tell, I ramble alot in my blogs, I dont edit them or try to put any structure to them. I treat this blog as a journal to benefit myself and allow me to do some reflection on myself. If ppl read and enjoy it, thats great... Id still do the blog if no one ever saw it however. Poker is my fucking job, and its the best job I could ever have as a college student. Over the last 200 hours Ive been making $40 an hour, not including rakeback, which is about $30 an hour when I 10 table. So Im making about 7x more than any other kid my age, and I work probably 1/7th as much. Life is great, poker is great and has been good to me. Im finally going to take it more serious, and treat it as an actual job.

I guess in a sense Im going to try and carry myself as a professional when Im studying/playing poker, so I guess Im a professional poker player.

End rant/reflection post. Time to go enjoy the rest of the day, and start my new job tomorrow morning.

Found my new bread and butter?

Ive played about 11k hands of 6max this month now, and Im fucking stuck $300... running so unbelievably bad its insane, and also I had a drunk night where I lost $500 open shoving pots 4 handed.... Im very unhappy with my results as far as 6max goes... but I possibly found my new forte..

Ive played about 2.5k hands of 100NL HU and Im +1200, running well but also playing extremely well looking back at my big HHs, I think Im going to continue trying to get unstuck at 6max but also play a ton of HU this month (maybe 10-15k hands)

I know HU is an extremely swingy game, but your winrate can be 2-3x larger than 6max if your efficient, especially at 100NL. Wish me luck with that, not quiet on track this month for poker goals, but Im still not worried. Everythings going well besides 6max results!

Heres to a new month (I'll drink to that)

Alright, some crazy shit been goin on in my life past 3 days... but September is finally here, and Im really optimistic for a HUGE month. I finished up August pretty strong and hope to keep the momentum going all through September. Not a good start I guess since I had some shit going on today that made me unable to play, but tomorrow Im gonna hit the grind real hard.

Im going out to get MC hammered tonight, but Im just going to put my September poker goals out there again. I'll leave out my life goals that was two posts ago... so here they are.

Poker Goals:
*Play 50k+ hands at strictly 100NL
*Play 10 tables on my desktop, and 6 on laptop/TV in bed
*Play a solid tag 17-19/14-17 game
*Make atleast 3 blog posts per week, including HHs and analysis
*Frequent and post at 2p2 and CR
*Make a 100NL video and post on CR Member Contributions
*Satty into atleast one Sunday Major or WCOOP event
*Study/learn PLO
*4 table 25PLO for atleast 5k hands this month
*Datamine whenever Im not on the computer, both 100NL and 100NL HU
*Play a few thousand hands of HU, 4 tabling
*Practice good game selection, especially for HU tables


Finally I dont want to post this as a goal really, but last night I made a prop bet with my roommate (knows nothing about poker) that I would make 5k+ this month. This includes rakeback and everything, we bet $10 and I gave him 5-1 odds... lol at me being drunk. Honestly though I dont think its impossible at all, and Im extremely competitive especially with my buddy... I never lose to him in anythign I cant let it happen! Here's to a great September. Drink up.

Month in Review

August was not a huge poker month for me, but I enjoyed myself outside of poker. 3 days ago me and my g/f broke up which has been very hard on me but I think Im gonna start playing again later today and I should be fine. September is going to be a big month for me.

Looking at my August stats I played 30k hands which was a lot for how many days I was actually playing. I ended +1900 on my desktop PT and -300 on my laptop. I only got about 6k hands in on my laptop and I dont know why but I generally dont play very well on it. I also had a sick -9 buy in swing one day playing on it.

So I made just over $1500 plus Im getting $600 in rakeback so a 2k month is great considering how much fun I had and how little I focused on poker.

Later today when I get my head clear, Im going to make a post for the new month and reitirate my goals that I hope to attain.

Time for some sub sandwiches, late

Late night thoughts, and a good day of poker.

Well today was a very busy day but I managed to get just over 2k hands in poker...and it was definitely a wild ride. I started off +300 immediately in like 300 hands, then all the sudden I ran into a bunch of sick beats and coolers. I lost two 2 outers in 50 hands... ended up being down 80 and I quit for a few hours.

Went back to the grind later at night and ended up playing about 1500 hand session and made 6 buy ins to make for a +$550 day. Feels good to have this day after yesterday where I couldnt win anything...

So now Im laying in bed with my wireless keyboard/mouse and wathing a CR video and typign this blog... and I realize that my life is pretty sweet for a 19 yr old college student... and I have pretty much everything I could ever want right now. I definitely consider myself very lucky to be making money playing a game. I had a few thoughts that I wanted to add to my September goals list...

Poker Goals: *Study/learn PLO
*4 table 25PLO for atleast 5k hands this month
*Datamine whenever Im not on the compute, both 100NL
and 100NL HU
*Play a few thousand hands of HU, 4 tabling
*Practice good game selection, especially for HU tables


Ive been wantting to learn PLO for awhile now and it seems everyone is starting to play it because theres a lot of money to be made. Also I have always done pretty well in HU and I want to play some more of it, I dont plan on playing more than 5k hands of HU or PLO however because Im really focused on my 50k hands of 6max.



Thats all I can think of for now, I have till August 31st to think and add ore goals, but I think thats gonna be about it. Bedtime, class in 6 hours!

Night.

Seriously back at it... Seriously...

Ok Ive been back in San Diego for a few days now and school just started the other day, Im excited for another year here living in a house with 3 of my best friends from high school... should be tons of great times. Im taking 19 units this semester of really hard classes, 3rd year spanish, calculus, critical thinking/writing, and econ... so I will have a ton of work ahead of me but Im looking forward to the challenge.

Ive played about 12k hands since getting back and have been up and down, but overall doing ok running at 4BB/100 and up just over $1,100. I hope to keep the momentum going into September which is going to be a HUGEEE month for me. I have a bunch of goals that I thought about all day today in class and at home... first I'm going to post my poker goals, and then just for myself Im gonna post some life goals. This is going to be an intense month and a lot of work if I plan to reach my goals, but I always look forward to a challenge.

Starting with Poker Goals:
*Play 50k+ hands at strictly 100NL
*Play 10 tables on my desktop, and 6 on laptop/TV in bed
*Play a solid tag 17-19/15-17 game
*Make atleast 3 blog posts per week, including HHs and analysis
*Frequent and post at 2p2 and CR
*Make a 100NL video and post on CR Member Contributions
*Satty into atleast one Sunday Major or WCOOP event

Thoughts on these goals... 50k hands should be no problem for me... and since I started 10 tabling my game went from a 18/15 to a 15/13... which is obvious but I want to loosen it back up. I absolutely want to be more involved with my blog and also the forums... even if nobody reads this... Ive wanted to make a video for awhile now, I dont know how great it would bebut I want to give it a shot. I used to satty into lots of Sunday Mills back when I was a SnG player and would do the double shootouts... I want to play atleast one major this month again just to have some fun.


Life Goals:
*Always make school work 1st priority.
*Spend less money
*Gym/Run 4x a week
*Read up on LA/NYTimes daily
*Read one leisure book
*Read 2 of my new investing books
*Eat healthier
*Get my adult league bball team going again
*Work on building my new computer


And now some thoughts on these goals... this summer I have been spending money like crazy... put about $2500 into my room... eating out a lot... going on vacations... I really need to mellow out now that Im back in school. I also stopped my routine of gym 5x a week this summer and I need to get back into that (also eating better). One thing I did do this summer was a lot of reading.. I read about 5 books, and I bought 3 investing books that I wanna read. Lastly me and my roommmate are both in the process of building our own CPUs, went out and got a sick case the other day... I want to have it finished by end of October

Oh and me and 6 guys from high school are all in San Diego and 5 of us were on the basketball team, Im getting us signed up for a very high caliber adult league that we are going to OWN.




Ok! Thats it, many more posts to come in September, for now I just want to finish August real strong and get some personal shit done.

Laters

Overdue Update..

Well I realize not many people check this but I kind of feel guilty because I commited myself to a group for July's low limit grinders group and felt like I was going to be a great help to all the guys... unfortunately I ended up enjoying my social life way to much and went on vacations for over half the month. I only logged 20k hands in (15k of those were in 3 days) and I made about $900. Really disappointing month pokerwise but Ive been enjoying the hell out of summer... so I guess its good for me.

Im moving back to San Diego mid August and school starts August 27th, I plan to get back into the grind full time then and log 40k+ hands a month like I used to. Summer was great and Im gonna enjoy these last few days... going to Lake Tahoe with my gf and 9 of my other friends on Monday-Thursday which will be a absolute blast. My girlfriend's dad bought 2 jetskis and is renting a boat/wakeboards for us.

Well I just wanted to make a quick post explaining myself. I see that the group I was in made awesome progress in July and are going to continue to sweat/talk to eachother which is great and Im really happy for them. I wish I would have had more time to contribute to developing some relationships with those guys as they are all great poker minds and would help my game tremendously.


Hope everyone has a good August and runs well in poker. Peace.